Pueri: Day 2

They confuse me
Completely
Utterly
And in every way possible

Why can't they just be straightforward?
I mean it

Was he kidding today?
It was just a joke, right?
When he said those words
Those three words.

He whispered them in my ear
It was a joke
But it felt like it wasn't
My heart stopped
Then it started thumping a mile a minute
I can still feel his presence next to me
His words in my ears


If it was a joke
Which it probably was
That hurts
A lot

Why are boys so confusing?

I don't know I guess.
There's a monkey up in there brain?
Hitting a bell to get the confused
So they respond by confusing other people?

Haha, probably.

~Nattie

Pueri

Boys.
Thanks to him.
You forgot,
about me.
I was left there
Waiting
For you

But he's back
More important

Sigh

I can't hate thouh
No
It's impossible

You see

I just need...
To surround myself...
With new people?
Cause I know
I know
You need to move on too

So I'll try to, too.

But

It still hurts
I still want to scream
I just need this to end?

You were still my best friend
It takes time for me to find a new one
I guess
To be able to cope
No, coping sounds like I have an issue.

I don't
I just need to stop whining

So I've decided

I hate girls
and guys
and dating
combined

~Natalie